Today I have to say I am very sad..sad for a country for which we have become..I look at my son, think of all the injustices and mistakes made regarding his case..value of human life lost ..neglects within our system..I think of the commercial where the Indian looked at America with a tear in his eye..I too think of the Statue of Liberty with a tear in her eye.. I am a fighter for justice and will find my son, but today I have tears in my eyes..Can we stand for what we believe or has our nation reversed to the gun slinging days of the wild west?
Today is a weeble day, time to reflect on days passed, regroup, roll up my sleeves and fight for a better tomorrow. Any one who has a child, look at them, take a good look, you raise them to become a good citizen, to care about others, and believe in a higher power, a Faith, God who gave his parents on earth an opportunity and privilege to raise him. YES, raising a child is the the biggest and most rewarding job in the world, being a loving parent..then in a blink of an eye a life is taken..fear sets in when you can't find the person you have given life to and you sense danger. Immediately you turn to the people you thought hired to serve and protect... the words echo over and over in my brain "HE WILL BE BACK, GIVE HIM TIME" "No sir.. you don't understand this is not his behavior something is wrong "..all we received were ECHOES OF SILENCE .. seven years later, many, many hurtful mistakes made and at a point of no return.... mom, dad and a few good people, my human angels, help us investigate to this day. You are so appreciated! What does a parent do when we hear "if this case was investigated properly it would have been solved in a few days". Not only is Billy gone but an entire family ripped and shredded in the blink of an eye.
From most of the investigators all we hear is budget...sorry who is going to pay...sorry our hands are tied.......... "But sir this is my son and how many others is this happening to? It can't be!" Reality set in like running into a stone wall.
Lying out there somewhere in a place unknown is my child, murdered, hidden and if it wasn't for the parents who raised him his file would have been at the bottom of the pile never to be heard of again. The only way he would have been found is if forensics were collected and reports filed properly, then maybe one day possibly beyond our years the name Smolinski will pop up ! Yes, our system is lacking, lacking the education which we are so capable but does not exist to this day..only on television shows.
We are supposed to be a civilized nation, 2011 our authorities should have proper training, they should all have a degree, in correct DNA collection, Bone identification, (human or animal) reports done and filed properly such as NamUs, NCIC, dental, finger prints, tattoos or any identifiers of a human person. If properly completed then we as parents will always be living fear of the unknown when a loved one disappears but could rest a little easier knowing everything was done accurately with a much better chance to be brought home or be identified.
God only knows when my son will be found and all the other families who have the tragedy of not knowing.
DAMN IT! ... the hurts are many, we have a new norm, the people we once were no longer exists... tears of sorrow will fall but hope for a better tomorrow....... God knows...God bless America !