God on the Mountain - Jesus Paid it All

[Tony Romeyn]

This past week I met with a friend whom I just recently got to know. She has gone through a teriffic amount of trauma and abuse in her life.

I desperately wanted to share with her who Jesus is to her and how he made her into such a wonderful person she is today, in part we talked about versus in Psalm 139:

 

¹³ You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
      and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
 ¹⁴ Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
      Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
 ¹⁵ You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
      as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
 ¹⁶ You saw me before I was born.
      Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
   Every moment was laid out
      before a single day had passed.

 ¹⁷ How precious are your thoughts about me,^[b] O God.
      They cannot be numbered!
 ¹⁸ I can’t even count them;
      they outnumber the grains of sand!
   And when I wake up,
      you are still with me!

It was then that I wrote her in part  the following, name removed;

...........you have been through so much for so many years which few people can identify with. I remember sitting with people in my Victim Service years, with someone in crisis. Most of the time when I met someone they were at the point of crashing. Sometimes if I found it appropiate, I would draw  a 180 deg. curve with a straight line underneath. The line representing our walk of life from birth to eternity. The line of our lives as I may call it is never static, it has ups and downs. Sometimes there are sharp drops when we go through crisis and when that happens, if we have loved ones or friends who help us through that tough time we can deal with it. But if not we climb that curve and eventually crash.  When we come to or close to that crashing point, it will take a long time to heal, one step at the time. Yet............ when we fully trust Jesus he can certainly help us heal more quickly or for some people instantly. I have never full found that instant healing as I told you that I deal with a lot of pain. At times I cry out to god to heal me now, but that is not happening. God’s plan is much greater then mine and I have to trust him. Is it always easy, NO, Never. But deep in my heart I know Jesus is there for me, He has not forgotten me, NOR HAS HE EVER FORGOTTEN YOU .......

The reason I share this with you when I thought about all this I wanted to desperately create a picture - which was in my mind - to share with those I met.

The following picture I put together and I hope and pray it will help some of you to share this with those seeking a way to be free. The song, God on the Mountain was added with permission from the Lynda Randle Ministry. It was such a fitting song to add to my picture. (Another amazing song by Lynda is called I'm Free - look it up on Youtube.

I pray that God would move in the lives of all of you who give to others so freely to those with missing and murdered loved ones. You truly follow one of my favorite scripture verses, Mat. 25:35-36

 ³⁵ For I was hungry, and you fed me. I was thirsty, and you gave me a drink. I was a stranger, and you invited me into your home. ³⁶ I was naked, and you gave me clothing. I was sick, and you cared for me. I was in prison, and you visited me.’

[Christina Venita Quinton]

Thank you so much Tony you have no idea how much i appreciate all your words!  I will never stop praying and especially for my mothers heart to be softened.  For her to embrase me again? Wow!  Ok i believe anyhting is possible.  I am thankfull that you and your wife never stop praying for your son, You are great parents, Im sure your freind will grow in that program, best wishes for her and her son and you and yours :) 

[Tony Romeyn]

Hello Christina, thank YOU for your kind words. Your Mom probably didn't realize the full impact your name could have. But God knows Christina. My friend came to the JMK registration night and signed up for the 12 week program. It was real exciting to see her come with her son.

One day Christina and for this I pray that God would soften your Mom's heart that she would run over and embrace you. Nver stop praying Christina, it took 12 years of prayer to have our son a his family come back to church. God does and will hear your prayers.

I am here for you any time you want to share Christina.

With Love, Because HE CARES!!

Tony

[Christina Venita Quinton]

Wow thank you Tony for your kind remarks, that very last sentence alomost made my eyes swell up :) Come to think of it my mother is the one who named me so that has to mean something right!  Anyways I hope your freind is better. Thank you for the single parent resource If i was there i would go! (BTW How did you know i was single?)  I love the work you do from the sound of it anyway.  Those people are so lucky and im sure thankful to have you councling them.  You are an incrediable person.  My mother lives in the same county i see her all the time in passing in public.  When she sees me she doesnt say a word and she keeps her distance but she does look at me.  When i first met her she said i had calf eyes lol or in other words she thought my eyes were pretty.  Everytime i see her she looks at me that way.  There is no spite, no hate, just her stare.  If i got nothing else i at least have that stare.  Thanks again Tony it's been nice talking to you!              

[Tony Romeyn]

Hi Christina, thank you so much for sharing this. I can't begin to imagine and your story breaks my heart. The continual love that God shows us, is supposed to be shown by our parents to us above all. When this is broken the hurt and pain is beyond belief. You are so right it was no fault of yours and God answered your prayers to help you see this. I am so happy for you that your inner struggles are over and that Jesus has given you a measure of peace. Yes what you say does make sense, as children we blame ourselves thinking it was our fault, but that is not true. I know that you will continue to pray for your Mom that in all her brokenness she one day will see the error of her ways. And I pray that one day this will happen.

Christina I will share your story with my friend and thank you so much again for sharing.

Just another thought, on Tuesday we are starting a program at our church called Just Me and the Kids. It is an amazing program to help not only single parents understand what this all means in the light of God's love, but we are very focussed on the kids to help them understand, just as you say, it's not their fault. We do this through interaction with different age groups, through games and some focused lessons. You can find the website here http://singleparentfamilyresources.org/Canada/churches.php 

Christina may God hold and bless you in all you are and do.

ps - when I was trying to look how your name was spelled, a moving thought came to me as your name starts with "Christ"-ina. I was trying to think about the rest of the spelling "ina" In-Christ-"a"lone

[Christina Venita Quinton]

Hey Tony your freind is lucky to have you!  Thanks for being there for her! :) I want to tell you something that you can refer back to your freind it helped me and maybe it can help her! ok One of the things i had to come to terms with about my life was my mother leaving me when i was a baby.  I met her when i was 16, lived with her for 2 years and have not spoken to her sence my 11 year-old was an infant.  For along time it hurt that my own mother didnt want me but i prayed for an answer to this (which i have done many times and still do) (trust me it works) and in time God showed me that my mother didnt want to be a mom and that is not my fault.  That there is actually somthing incredibily wrong with my mother and not me! When i learned that, i found peace and my mother's abandonment no longer bothers me!  In fact i think it upsets other people more than it does me.  I feel bad for my mother in a way because she is so evil not just to me but EVERYBODY that she will allow herself to get beat up by men just so they could support her so she dont have to work.  I have come to see that i have made so much more out of my life than she has with hers and that she is the one who is truly lost.  I have peace about her now that i know none of it was my fault!  Does that make any sence?  I hope this helps! :)   

[Tony Romeyn]

Hello Burl, thank you for these words. Your prayer is special to me, this is something I often struggle with. For 17 years I dealt with assisting families in crisis through volunteering with te RCMP Victim Services Unit. I often took in the grief of those families experiencing horrible loss. I so often said I leave it at jesus feet, but I often live the pain and still do. Yes I rejoice in my Heavenly Father who has walked beside me every step of the way. A few times I wrote a poem living the pain and promising God that it belongs to Him. I know it in my head but find it Oh so hard to feel. Following is one of my poems.

Thank you Burl for this gentle reminder.

Sincerely, Tony

It does not belong to me

The weight I carry everyday
Does not belong to me
I see their faces, I feel their pain
Your children broken and alone
Its love they want but cannot find
Struggling Mom’s often so alone
You have heard their cries
Every day I want to fix it all
I cannot stand the pain
Then I hear your voice
My child why worry so
Release it all to me
I am Jesus
On the cross I paid it all
Surrender every care to me
Take a rest you can’t fix it all
That’s up to me
Do I hear you right
I don’t need to carry all this stuff
Yes, you must do and love those
Who have no one else
But you don’t need to do it all alone
At days end give it all to me
I will calm your spirit and your mind
Because you belong to me
There will be pain and hurt
I have not come to fix my world
I am the healer of the soul
I have come to love and save
Tell them I love them so
Thank you Jesus you have not forgotten
Any of your children
Now use me Lord
Give me love to give away
Then I give it all to you

 

[Tony Romeyn]

Sarah you are very Special and kind.

Love YOU too xoxox

Tony

[Burl Barer]

"Therefore strive that your actions day by day may be beautiful prayers. Turn towards God, and seek always to do that which is right and noble. Enrich the poor, raise the fallen, comfort the sorrowful, bring healing to the sick, reassure the fearful, rescue the oppressed, bring hope to the hopeless, shelter the destitute"  (Abdu'l-Baha, Paris Talks, p. 80)

Here is a prayer that I find of significant value. May it bless you as well.

O God! Refresh and gladden my spirit. Purify my heart. Illumine my powers. I lay all my affairs in Thy hand. Thou art my Guide and my Refuge. I will no longer be sorrowful and grieved; I will be a happy and joyful being. O God! I will no longer be full of anxiety, nor will I let trouble harass me. I will not dwell on the unpleasant things of life.
O God! Thou art more friend to me than I am to myself. I dedicate myself to Thee, O Lord.
(Compilations, Baha'i Prayers, p. 150)

[Sara Huizenga]

You have impeccable timing and once again have so blessed us by sharing ... love you, Tony ... xoxoxoxo