Voice Platform and Support Network for Families of Missing and Victims of Crime
Its a wonderous thing life is. It's always changing and always evolving, yet in those times of change sometimes we cant move forward with life, life seems to stop us in our tracks.
I dont really remember what year it was that I decided life wasnt going to do that to me any more, but I decided that doing something with life was much better than doing nothing at all.
My parents had been my best friends and even though I had siblings we were not to awefully close as I was growing up, so they had also been my everything.
When they both passed away within 2 years of each other I thought to myself what am I going to do? Sometimes I remember just sitting in the bathtub totally numb and staring at the water as if it could tell me what to do next.
Inside I was a mess and outside I had to make those around me feel like I was just great. I was strong and I wasnt hurting, when deep down inside I was crushed. I felt sick and even though there were people all around me I felt empty.
Was this void in my soul, heart and spirit ever going to be filled? At that time I sure didnt think so, I remember talking to myself telling myself it would be okay and you will get over it. I tried to keep myself as busy as possible.
It became That time of the year! I can say I never really felt normal after that when the holidays would roll around. Quietly I would take a picture of my parents out and place it somewhere I thought was sacred and lit candles but not so anyone would know what for and I would talk to them daily. I would share my love for them outloud daily, and things began to change.
Now when there is something that I feel my mom or my dad may have liked or something we would chat about, I always include them in my thoughts and prayers to include them as my earthly mother and my earthly father and to speak to them when my heart needs to. I feel good and okay inside.
How do you celebrate the loss of your loved one or ones? How do you make it through the holidays? Sharing is a great way to make it through.