My beautiful Jessie, my daughter I miss so much. Mother's Day 2009 will be here soon, another Mother's Day without you. Mother's Day is one of those days that I have a bittersweet feeling about. I love being a Mother, it is my most favourite thing I do and the best thing in my life are my kids and celebrating it is very special to me, but with you not here, and me not knowing where you are, I just feel wrong about celebrating. Not just this day, but most celebrations seem wrong - how can I celebrate anything without you or at least knowing where you are. I feel as if I am going through the motions, but it is not the same without all my children and now all my grandchildren with me. I can't celebrate with all my being, with all my heart - but for the sake of Crystal, Katie (& Jake & baby Jacobus) and Jennee (& Catlin & little Maddison) I do try. For you all, I celebrate being a mother. Jessie, being your mother is something that I am very proud of and I hope that I have been as good at being your mother as you are at being my daughter. Baby girl, I miss you and I need you back so much. We all do. Your tiny little body and huge heart & soul have left a hole the size of the universe in our lives, and nothing but you will fill it.
Love your Mama xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
PICTURE: My Mother's Day 1996 present from Jessie - a cup she painted in school.